An Un-Expected Journey

Seven years ago my life changed forever, I met my wife. Now many of you are probably thinking, 'Yeh, big deal. My life changed when I met my partner also.' Well your right, that does change your life. But you see, until I met Otilia I never, and I mean never, wanted children. I had no interest in having any, never did and thought I never would. I was always the favourite uncle to many kids (that's because I refuse to grow up, even now) but the idea of having my own just never entered my mind. Until I met Otilia.

Once we were married and had settled into married life we decided that we were ready to have a child. We were lucky enough to get pregnant pretty quick and after the usual period we found our selves in hospital with the baby well and truly on its way. Unfortunately the labour was hard and after what seemed like a week Otilia was taken in for a cesarean section. It was a nerve racking and intense time, sitting next to her as the doctor cut her open but once they had lifted out this little thing with a thick head of dark hair my heart just melted and a tear ran from my eye. I walked over to where they were cleaning the baby up and when they handed this beautiful tiny girl to me I just couldn't believe that she was mine.

Her name had been decided upon long before she was born, Kara. Named after the cousin of Kal-el (superman), you see I always said if we had a boy I wanted to call it Kal-el as it would have come from super genes, however the baby turned out to be a girl and this threw me a little bit. But then I looked up what Supergirls Kryptonian name was and it turned put to be Kara. A name that we both liked a great deal. But from the moment she was born I've called her Boogie.

Over the last few years she has grown from one of the most beautiful babies ever to a beautiful, cheeky, blond haired Boogie. She claimed my heart the moment she was born and she still holds it now (along with her mother) She changed my life completely and I will be forever the better person for it. I never wanted it, never expected it, never planed it but fatherhood is the greatest thing I have ever achieved in my life. Ive always been a survivor, Ive always managed to get past any challenge life has put in my way. From a broken heart, the breakup of my first marriage, ill health and the loss of my Mother to that horrible thing known as cancer. I have always made it through. But the idea that something should happen to Boogie.... The idea alone is like a nightmare. I don't know if I could make it past that, I don't know if I could survive or indeed want to. As, I'm sure, any decent parent would feel. But, even though she puts the fear of god into me every time she hurts her self, I wouldn't have it any other way.

She's my Boogie and I will never judge her, criticise her or be disappointed in her. No matter what she achieves in life or where the journey takes her she will always be my little girl and I will always be there for her.

Next week she turns 3. Where has the time gone? Its going to be great, this will be the first birthday that she really knows whats going on, what the presents are for and why every one has come to see her. She will have a party, she will see her friends and me and Otilia will spoil her like crazy. We will spend too  much money, I will probably eat too much food but you know what. I don't care, it will all be worth it just to see her smile.

All the feelings i have felt, all the love that consumes me every time she calls out daddy, all the smiles and laughter that fills my heart I owe to one person. My dear, lovely and beautiful wife Otilia. Without whom I would never have taken this journey into parenthood. The 2 ladies in my life, Otilia and Kara (Boogie). I love them both, more than then will ever truly realise, more than I will ever be able to truly show.

My family, whom I shall cherish, provide for and protect forever.

Till next time....

The Voice has spoken.